What does blogging mean to me?, sure I’ve been on this platform for 11 years, saw 2 of them gone just like that.
Whilst abandon one that had over 300 followers, just shy of 400 posts with a
decent-ish under performing views overall, with no post ever seeing a three digit view figure, in comparison to my peers that performed better than my blog.
If you’re wondering what this particular post is about. Well I was reading a blog post by Annie. And it got me thinking. What does blogging “really” mean to me. For a long time, I never could admit two things that drove me. Traffic and comments (or community). I’ve always felt that by speaking or mentioning anything like that.
It made me self-centred, and just in it for the numbers, so to speak. Hence why I didn’t bring up anything up like that to others. As it will put others off me. So I bottle it up. And wrote posts in a way that excluded any of the “me”, how I felt about it – giving this boring, impartial stance. In essence I wanted to keep it impersonal as much as possible. And I accomplished that. I guess the other reason why I don’t really say things to bloggers generally (unless they’re just non blogging personal drama) is because something did happen a few years. A few years ago, I inadvertently pushed a blogger out of blogging. Looking back at it now, that blogger wasn’t ready I guess. The blogger was blogging on blogspot. Someone left a comment where they weren’t happy with the way the post is.
I tried to come to the bloggers aid. By giving tips on how to find their own voice in their blog posts by looking at yt comedians or other sources for inspirations etc, and they took it, but they struggled in trying to find their own voice. And sadly they left after awhile. Looking back, to be honest their way had a sense of charm to it. It kind of left a scar, as I saw myself responsible for pushing someone out without meaning to.
In a way I guess that’s how Rasitlin got ahead of me, don’t get me wrong this isn’t some shade thrown at him. We’re both supportive in the comment section, and of bloggers. He’s more visible than I am, this noted by another blogger. He will pick you up and comment on how you fell, whilst I’ll give you the advice to the correct store. And that’s how I leave it as. I have the misfortune of getting in to disagreements quite easily when I run my mouth off xDD.
But yeah, when I restarted due to my frustration with inthecubbyhole and how it was going. I abandoned it. I wanted a place where I was free, and I found that here. I blog on my own time (I should be a bit more consistent though 😂), just being creative in a creative space away from likes, comments and stats. Still help new bloggers in to the community. The funny thing is I’m inspired by my old posts believe it or not. It rekindles my passion for blogging.
I guess I rambled long enough, in a ramble way. Find that place where you can be happy (or at ease in my case) and not see the thing you love become a chore. That’s what blogging means to me at least.